From Cheater to Hardworker !!

Recovery is a moral affair. One has to be honest with oneself to be able to walk the path of recovery. It’s not for the faint of heart. Luckily, addiction is also not for the faint of heart: thus, each addict has the seed of recovery within him. The first truth one has to accept is that they have lost control over their life. They are able to see the loss and damage caused to their life with this apparent “habit”.

I was 13 when Bhatia Sir told me that I have mood disorder. It was minor back then but visible to his practiced eye. He gave me medicine too but I refused it. Sometimes I wonder what my life could have been if I had taken the medication. But, there is no point thinking of the past. It still took me 6 years to reach rehab and I was in a very bad shape. That was when i realized my life is not in my control. The second truth I had to realize was that i can’t help it. After my rehab, I entered sobriety, not recovery. For a year I was sober but since I did not work on my coping mechanisms, I started using drugs again. Then when I accepted that I couldn’t help it, I listened to everything sir said. Now it’s been one year in recovery, and i’ve learnt so much. I’ve become such a better human being.